“I the Lord search the heart, try the reigns, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to his doings.”
“Let us search and try our ways, and turn again to the Lord. Let us lift up our heart with our hands unto God in the heavens.” Lamentations 3:40,41
When we are making a fearless moral inventory and examination of ourselves we must be mindful that nothing can be hidden, swept under or forgotten, because in truth we know it’s there, and in truth God knows it all too!
The search of what’s under our skin and in our heart is what we will begin to discuss now, this is deeper than any biology textbook can reveal, more revealing than any anatomy textbook, and more mysterious than any other study that ever exists. The study of what is in the heart, and under our skin has been the topic of all of life! To really understand was lies beneath the skin we much search within the deep halls of our mind and heart, into the secret places that only God and each individual person can go. God is there, as we read, “I the Lord search the heart…” So let us also search.
Friend if the Lord is searching your heart and he knows our ways we must know that nothing is hidden from him, so with this understanding let us ask him to reveal all that he finds, pray this with me,
Jesus, search my heart and reveal to us the deep hidden things about me that I have suppressed in an effort to hide the truth from myself and others, reveal it so that I can recover in honesty, because you have said the truth shall make me free!
As it is written, “And ye shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.” John 8:32
We are reading this book for the truth so follow me in your Bible to Galatians chapter five, here we will be searching through this chapter to see if we can recognize any within ourselves.
Galatians 5:19 “Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, sedition, heresies, envy, murders, drunkenness, reviling, and such.”
In this list did you recognize any of these in your life?
Don’t forget when we make a “fearless” examination of ourselves we must tell it all, no matter how bad, how shameful, or how unlawful we have been.
Right human conduct comes first by making a fearless examination of ourselves and then holding all that we are up to the light of God. The light of God is not opinion, it is fact.
The fact is… The truth is… I am … ?
Did you answer this with all honesty, if so let’s get to work on shaping our life into what God says that we are.
God did not create addicts! God created mankind, he created you! Special, peculiar, brilliant, creative, wonderful, artistic, and over comer!
You see God created you to overcome, the devil, sin, addiction, enemies of his, trials, tragedy, sickness, and disease!
Why do we try to hide the truth from God? If he already knows us and already has a full account of all of our deeds then why do we hide?
Adam and Eve did the same in the Garden of Eden, they hid from God, as we read,
“And they heard the voice of God walking in the garden in the cool of the day: and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God amongst the trees of the garden.” Genesis 3:8
Are you still hiding anything? Why?
Healing comes by revealing!
This is one of the most important aspects to recovery. To search ourselves after we have come to the knowledge that Jesus is the source of power that can change us. In searching ourselves we have admitted our need for change and our desire to get an up close reality view of who we are and who Christ says we are. NO MORE LIES!
ARE YOU BEING CONFRONTED BY GOD TODAY? Remember we all fall short and God already knows who we are, but we must know ourselves by being honest.
“Confess your sins and he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins.” 1John 1:9
In making this examination of ourselves we cannot hide from God or our true self any longer. We must confess the truth, remember the good about you, and be real about your addiction and the bad that it causing in you and others around you.
Looking at ourselves honestly we find that addiction is very selfish, deceiving, and prideful. Selfish because we seek only to please ourselves at any cost. Deceiving because we are deceived, and we work to deceive others by covering or hiding our addiction and even denying it, and finally it is prideful, because all of the focus is on “I” and the pride ride comes out so that we can make ourselves feel better about who we really are when we are in this addiction.
Of the list of character flaws listed in Galatians five, are you saying that you do not have any of those? Be careful of denial, because denial prohibits recovery and lengthens the destructive process allowing for it to continue it’s course.
The truth is, as God clearly says,
“As it is written, There is none righteous, no not one.” Romans 3:10
“For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” Romans 3:23
Friend God knows all about you, how you were fearfully and wonderfully made, how he wants you to live in his image and likeness, and how you have strayed from that image to become the image that destroys life.
You are not made to be an addict, you are made in the image and likeness of God! Now we must move to erase all that is not in his likeness.
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